My HIGHS and my lows..

Today i felt like i was on an emotional rollercoaster ride.. I was really happy during the day. Was able to satisfy my craving for nasi bryani, had good company for lunch, took my own sweet time doing work whilst humming along to songs playing on my lappie .. There was even a tiny but significant miracle.. that i was so sure it came from God. I was planning to leave my office and set out for BSF at ard 650pm when suddenly 2 frens who dont usually msg me msn-ed me! One of them is someone i have never spoken to very much online before. He said hi to me and i was really surprised to receive the msg. When we chatted further, i realised that he msn-ed the wrong person. He had wanted to msn another fren whose nick was also Dreamer! Hah. So i was held back.. by about 10 min. But that was enough.. enough to stop the rain for me. Cos when i was abt to leave at 650pm, it had jus begun to rain. I really felt God working then. It was like He really stopped the rain so that i could walk over to BSF. I was filled with thanks and praise!

Later, as i went to BSF alone as Eileen was rushing work, my moods changed. I was suddenly inspired to learn more about Gods word. I desired to study in a Bible college for an extended period of time.. just learning abt the Bible (Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth) =) How apt! But then, God also brought to mind a weakness (as the speaker was saying abt allowing God to change us), that is, pride in knowledge of His word. I felt i needed to humble myself and allow His Spirit to take over my head knowledge. OK OK i know this is getting a tad too spiritual for perhaps for some of my readers.. ill stop here. I just needed to get it out of my chest. I became heavy hearted.. but i m glad i had a new fren for company on my way home.

Then on my way to take bus 42, the call with Tatty made me more agitated.. i seriously cant put a finger to the reason. I tried calling my best fren.. but she said she'd call me back. I felt even worse after that. I was thinking about my life, what to do with it, etc etc. You know these moments. And then after that, i jus didnt feel like tokking to anyone or receiving any calls. Im telling myself God's definitely got a purpose in this for me. So just wait on Him...

"Be still, and know that I am God."